ok so i'm home for xmas and while i'm here i will be working, did i mention that i'm only home for 2 weeks, then i'm going to go back to school for a class. I do know one of my grades though for this semester. I got an A which is great. Everything else is going fine, boyfriend is great its been over a year and there have been no problems. other then that i am just waiting till i go back to school and then for the spring semester to start. Hopefully this year will be better then last. Another plus is i will be 21 in Feb.

so lets add cut palm t the list of injurys for the past week. hurt like hell too. Dont worry i have a bandaid on itso i think it will be fine. Als after this week is over i might put up some of the artwork i have been working on in my class. i will want to know what you guys think abut them. but im guessing no one will say a thing about them cause i guess people have stop talking to me.

so much has gone on in the last month that i dont know where to start. Got an A in my summer spanish class. Started an art class and its going well. My boyfriend came up for a vist on a thursday then left on a monday, but before he left i stepped on glass and had to pull it out. then in Aug i get to see Jeff Dunham cause he rocks. other then that nothing really has been going on. I feel like people have stoped carring about me cause i havent heard from anyone.

I'm tired of life right now. I'm tired of being treated like a 4 year old when im 20 by everyone in my family. i try to stand up for myself and i get told to shut up and to drop it but when someone else brings it up its ok for me to get yelled at but not ok for me to say anything. Im trying really hard not to go back to old habbits but its hard not to when you feel like crap. but i know no one will read this so it doesn't matter anyways.

I'm somewhat down and i dont know why, so i will fake it and make everyone think im ok. Thats something im good at. I wish i could talk about what is going on but im not even sure.